Sunday, May 24, 2015

The Fastest 3 Months

And the day has finally arrive. The day I have to return to work after 90 days of maternity leave. The day I definitely don't look forward to.

Mothers who went through this would know how it feels. And to find a trusted babysitter is a huge challenge after reading all the horror stories on the news. I don't know how my day will be tomorrow but definitely it will be filled thinking about Isyraf. What is he doing,  has he had his milk, can Papa console him when he cries. Will he sleep well. And thousands of other questions popping up in my mind. Sigh....

I am lucky though. I get to be on flexi working arrangement. So I get to rotate with my better half to take care of Isyraf ie no daycare for him. Ideally, I would want to be the one taking care of him 24/7. However, that option is not available now, so I better be grateful with the current option I have in hand.

I know many would say I'lI be bored staying at home. I have one secret to tell you.  I am not an ambitious person career wise. I just want to be good in what I do and give my all when I am in that position. However, if it comes to a point I have the option to leave and focus on my family,  I am not afraid to let everything go. I know my priorities and I am not chasing to climb up the corporate ladder. I don't want to miss important phase of my children's life cause I am too busy working. Those moments will not come again. Moments like their first step, word and other part of them growing up, there's no repeat. None!

IInsyallah, the opportunity for me to stay at home and focus on my family and this will also allow my better half to focus on his business will come eventually. I believe. ..

Need to be mentally prepared for tomorrow. Wish me luck!

1 comment:

Nurhayati said...

all the best kak.. insyaAllah semuanya berjalan ngan lancar. jgn stress2 hehe