Tuesday, April 29, 2014

I can't be any fatter than this

One thing I have been struggling with this one issue for the past 13 years. Yes, 13 years, since the day I gave birth to my 3rd child. I gained weight like a lot! And still trying to lose it.


Cause I love food too much and I hate exercising that much.

I used to love outdoors activities. I used to love playing sports. When I was in school, I took part in almost all sports. I played netball, volleyball, tennis, ran even to the point of playing hockey. I just love to do it all. Even when I started working I still continue to play sports. I represented my division and my company in many sports event. That was until I gave birth the third time. I stopped and tried to start again, but somehow just failed miserably.

I still play sports occasionally but more at my convenience. For the past 2 years I tried to take part in running events so I get motivated to train but somehow I managed to make excuses for myself. I know I am in denial if I blamed it on work, family or whatever the reason may be. It's more to make me feel better about myself, but I know this spells denial in capital letters.

For the past one year, I managed to lose close to 11kg effortless. I am this weird person who lose weight when I am very happy about my work and gain weight when I am in stressful condition. I was so happy when I have to send all my pants for altering since I looked like someone who borrowed pants from clowns when I come to work. I got to buy new jeans and I looked so damn good in them.

But, sadly, I am starting to gain weight again. Yesterday, while I was performing my Zuhur, I can seriously feel how how heavy I am when duduk antara dua sujud. My pants are getting tighter and I look like sarung nangka in my jeans. NO!!!! This can't be happening. I look good and now I look like some makcik who pretend to have lose 2 size smaller.

Come to think of it, perhaps my stress is back. And I need to remain calm.....And perhaps I am losing my interest.....

Let's start again Liza. You were happier wearing 4 sizes smaller, you can't go back to XXL......

Breath in, breath out.....

Have a great day everyone! And an awesome week ahead!

1 comment:

attyfir said...

jom kita sama2 diet :)